Have you ever had a day where everything was hazy, not quite there.
I am sad today I find. It is a slump prehaps. Though admittedly I have reason for sadness today.
I find sad is better than depressed in many ways, though it is just as hazy - I am not numb. I feel.
And while what I am feeling today is sadness, it is a blessing in someways, because it is something.
I feel something.
I look at the world today, and it is beautiful and silent, undisturbed; it's as though I have a lens over my eyes brushing away all distrubances - all mars on this perfect vision.
It is so beautiful, it is cry worthy.
I do need people, like anyone else, but at times I wish that should I go outside, I'd find only a forest.
Yes, a beautiful forest with a whispering brook, it's trying to get my attention, and if I learn to listen close enough I can learn the secrets that I've been searching for my entire life.
To drift into something so perfect, to dream of my perfect place, it is taunting.
I sit here at this desk, and I dream of somewhere without pain, people, effort.
Such a place does not exsist.
To Any Of My You Tube Veiwers: I'm sure if you've read this you'll realize that while writing I am given to dramatics, but I find I am also much more eloquent...and also slightly...nonsensical. I tend to trail off, but thank you for taking a look.
Would you want to live in a world without pain, or people, or effort? Pain gives you the perspective to recognize the pleasure in your life. Without it, you would be unable to truly comprehend or appreciate the pleasures you enjoy. People allow you to have those to connect with; to love, to share your achievements with, to help pick you up when you fall. Effort creates pride and care for what you do. If things were simply given to you, you wouldnt appreciate them as much as those things which you have had to work for.
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